Today is a depressing day.
(And I didn't use the word "sad" because I don't like the way it sounds.)

Had lunch with Likim and talked about lots of stuff.
From what we thought about studying to successful people to what we wanted to be when we grew up .
Haha, and it got me thinking alot which caused me to have a slight headache while walking home just now.

I've learnt many things today.
It hurts more to have it and lose it than to never have it in the beginning at all.
Because we always think we can get it back.
And I decided to stop depending on luck.
Because it never brings you anywhere.
It can make you feel happier to believe in it but it doesn't bring you away from the reality.
Hope isn't something I should find in my dictionary anymore.
I should stop hoping for something.
Instead , try harder to achieve something once I set my mind on it.
I should stop giving myself excuses for my failures but accept it and learn from it.
Hoping is like lying to myself.
Like living in self denial, because you know you might not be able to get there but you console yourself by thinking you would.
I think I should search for courage and determination.
At least I would accept my mistakes and setbacks.
Then i would find determination to amend them.
It takes time but I can try.

Tomorrow might be yet another setback, but there's still more to come.
Tomorrow might not be the greatest day, but we can make a better day in the future.
There are many tomorrows but make every one even better than today.